Chosen to Suffer
“And every prayer we prayed in desperation. The songs of faith we sang through doubt and fear…” “I chose you for this.” God whispered to my heart while I was driving, crying and singing along to Hymn of Heaven by Phil Wickham. I’m not someone who hears God speak to me fairly often. Most of the time He speaks through scripture and guides me that way. So, I was surprised on this particular day to hear Him speak so clearly. What is the “this” He chose me for? Those lyrics always remind me of Tony and my sufferings: infertility, miscarriages, scary diagnoses….God was telling me He chose me for those particular sufferings. I cried all the more as waves of gratitude poured over me. It was His sweet way of reminding me that He is in control of it all and that all our pain has a purpose that is grander than what I currently see or may ever see. God was confirming what I was already clinging to: that He is working in our sufferings. I think my ...